Here I am sitting at my desk reminiscing everything that happened in 2017 and one thing is sure I would never have expected all this to happen. On the 31rst of December 2016, I knew what I wanted for 2017 but I received so much more. Resolutions
New years resolutions
We all know that resolutions are more easily forgotten than achieved, thus I chose to focus on only 2 resolutions for 2017. I wanted to live on my own and pass my driving license. Having a shorter list helped me to focus on how I could make it happen. I worked super hard for the driving license, invested a lot of money and energy in the driving lessons but failed. Yes I failed and I am waiting for another test as you have a 6-month waiting period in between each test. I was heartbroken, depressed and even had to go back to counseling because of that. Then I understood that in life you do not get what you deserve. 1 + 1 is not equal to 2. In life if you give everything you have, you might still lose or fail and trying really hard to be positive (I’m still swallowing that pill) I think that you get what you want when it becomes what you need. This failure only taught me that life isn’t always fair but it is always right and that we have to trust the timing of the universe.
Good news is, I still managed to get my own house. Getting there too was a struggle as it took me may be a year to find the right place. Now I feel free and able to be fully myself. Someone told me this year “How I’m I suppose to know who I am if I only leave my parents’ house for the house of my husband.” Getting this time to know who you are on your own helps you build yourself-worth.
The best memories of 2017
The Makeup Days/Les Journées du Maquillage
2017 was definitely a year where I have found who I am and what I want to do. Hans Telvave the humane makeup artist. Organizing the makeup days in February was a huge achievement for me and having people still talking about it, hearing how it gave people hope to keep going, all this gives me confidence that this is where I belong. Using makeup as a tool to bring people to self-love.
The Makeup Live
I decided to be true to myself and get rid of that exclusive/ posh mua image I had. I worked so hard of being confident and myself that I wanted people to feel it. A while ago if people would stare at me in public I would put a cold queen mask on and ask myself WTF, why are they staring at me? Now I smile or nod just to say hi. If you want people to be respectful, show respect. If you want to be loved, love others. I started the makeup live for this. To be myself and link my job to my real self, easy going, wild, full of life. All these lives had amazing responses and I am beyond grateful for the freedom I experienced being publicly myself.
Friends with a dream in common
This woman is the highlight of my end of year. She brought light to a place that was dark and torn apart. I don’t want to talk publicly about what happened but she allowed me to reconnect with my childhood dream. And God how good it feels to live your dream. Wings grew, hearts connected and a tribe was united. Thank you.
I transformed beautifully this year as I connected deeply to the world of self-growth. I read a lot even if I wasn’t much of a reader, kept on doing meditation and yoga (even though I should do more of these). I also met an amazing life coach who has spread light and positivity in my life. Today I understand that the mistakes I make reflect wound that need to be healed and being too hard on myself won’t work. I am present and free.
I2017 was full of surprises, full of growth and achievements. Thank you for all the love from sponsors, friends, family members and everyone, everything that made 2017 such a beautiful year. I love you and wish you all and HAPPY NEW YEAR. I am blessed to share my life with you.